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I said I'd do this, so here it is. This is mostly for my own benefit so I don't forget it, but I don't care if you read it (be warned, though). Now let's see if I can actually put down in words...
So... where to begin?
I am, as I have stated countless times before, asexual. However, also being a dragon, the question has come up countless times: what if you're just attracted to dragons? At first, I found the idea silly at best; most stuff of that nature I had found was as disgusting to me as that with humans; however, as I continued to look, intrigued, I noticed there were a few things that did actually catch my fancy. The thing that surprized me most about these things was that I was more interested in males, while females still were somewhat gross, or just not... interesting. True, all of these pictures were still humanoid in build, which shoudn't be if I'm looking for dragons in particular, but it's kind of hard to determine what a mythical species looks like, y'know?
Anyway, as I said, there were a few things here and there that intrigued me. I was torn. Was I truly asexual, or was I just attracted to what I was? This question haunted me for some time.
Eastern dragons, to me, are not sexual creatures at all. In fact, I'd not hesitate to say there was no way for them to physically reproduce, and therefore there was no gender identification. This combined with my current masculine gender identification has thrown me off. The way I have it figured out at the moment, I don't get anything out of the female gender because, in my mindset, there's no reason to. As for the male gender, because I identify as such, I can see myself in the situation. As a result, I'm not a big fan of M/M images, but M solo still tends to work, especially when it caters to the few fetishes I've found I enjoy. (I said it was gonna get kind of graphic, didn't I?)
So yes, I still identify as asexual, even within the context of species.
In spite of all this, I am still attracted to Eastern dragons. In the asexual community, it's commonly called a "romance drive" - when you feel strongly for another, to the utmost without being sexual. I have made mention of this before, as this is how I feel in regards to my species. When coupled with the light feelings I have in regards to my own body (in other words, with regards to obviously male Eastern dragon porn pictures, to be perfectly blunt), it fills me with a strange mix of feelings: love because it's an Eastern and identification due to species as well as masculinity are the two big ones. Because, again, I feel that something like that (gender-indetified Eastern) cannot be, I don't have feelings for the being, yet there are still feelings. If that makes sense.
In other news, I did better on my calc test than my roommate, and he went to class and did all the homework. What does THAT tell you? :P I actually did really well, too.
So... where to begin?
I am, as I have stated countless times before, asexual. However, also being a dragon, the question has come up countless times: what if you're just attracted to dragons? At first, I found the idea silly at best; most stuff of that nature I had found was as disgusting to me as that with humans; however, as I continued to look, intrigued, I noticed there were a few things that did actually catch my fancy. The thing that surprized me most about these things was that I was more interested in males, while females still were somewhat gross, or just not... interesting. True, all of these pictures were still humanoid in build, which shoudn't be if I'm looking for dragons in particular, but it's kind of hard to determine what a mythical species looks like, y'know?
Anyway, as I said, there were a few things here and there that intrigued me. I was torn. Was I truly asexual, or was I just attracted to what I was? This question haunted me for some time.
Eastern dragons, to me, are not sexual creatures at all. In fact, I'd not hesitate to say there was no way for them to physically reproduce, and therefore there was no gender identification. This combined with my current masculine gender identification has thrown me off. The way I have it figured out at the moment, I don't get anything out of the female gender because, in my mindset, there's no reason to. As for the male gender, because I identify as such, I can see myself in the situation. As a result, I'm not a big fan of M/M images, but M solo still tends to work, especially when it caters to the few fetishes I've found I enjoy. (I said it was gonna get kind of graphic, didn't I?)
So yes, I still identify as asexual, even within the context of species.
In spite of all this, I am still attracted to Eastern dragons. In the asexual community, it's commonly called a "romance drive" - when you feel strongly for another, to the utmost without being sexual. I have made mention of this before, as this is how I feel in regards to my species. When coupled with the light feelings I have in regards to my own body (in other words, with regards to obviously male Eastern dragon porn pictures, to be perfectly blunt), it fills me with a strange mix of feelings: love because it's an Eastern and identification due to species as well as masculinity are the two big ones. Because, again, I feel that something like that (gender-indetified Eastern) cannot be, I don't have feelings for the being, yet there are still feelings. If that makes sense.
In other news, I did better on my calc test than my roommate, and he went to class and did all the homework. What does THAT tell you? :P I actually did really well, too.
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