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[baphijmm]

I'm starting to worry about this job. I feel kind of bad, since Stirling only seems to be able to point out my flaws and reasons I shouldn't be on the project (or even in New Mexico, for that matter). I mean, I'm sure he's trying to help (actually, there's a really neat story to go along with that about how the nut on a propane tank appliance is like a neutrino), but it's really disheartening, especially when I know he's right. I don't know what I need to know. In fact, the only time I felt useful while he was there was doing janitorial work, like sweeping up the site or laying down oil-absorbant when the piping ruptured. I don't want to be a janitor for the rest of my life, nor do I want to be a grunt, but it seems like those are the only jobs I'm even suited enough to go into. :/

No short fiction returned today. No assignments given in regards to the creative non-fiction. Today's been just really depressing, all in all.

And, because it's just such a cool idea (Stolen from its originator, kanlyven):

Reply to this with any songs that remind you of me, no matter when, not matter what, then post this in your journal and find out what songs you remind others of. If your lucky you'll end up with a soundtrack long enough to listen to for hours, just to remind you of all your friends.

Comments

[liminaltime]

If all Stirling does is point out your flaws and make you feel useless, then it sounds to me like he might be the kind of person who cuts down on people's self-esteem. I don't know the actual situation, of course, but that's the vibe I'm getting.

[baphijmm.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking it's more along the lines of the "Drill Sergant" mentality, as in, if you're put down, you'll feel compelled to build yourself up so he can't put you down anymore. Unfortunately, there's a reason I hate this country's armed forces and would never join their ranks.

[liminaltime]

Yeah, that sounds likely. He may buy into the "tough love/spirit-breaking" mentality. So you're probably not the only person who's been berated. Also, here's another possible explanation for his harshness: some people are naturally very blunt and insensitive to the feelings of others, so they may not realize how harsh they sound (my dad is like that, I can't tell you how many times he's made me upset).